2016 is drawing to a close. Thinking over the year, I think it might be good to pack it up in a gift box and send it back. Could I have a do-over, without all the problems? But, immediately I realize how each day is a really wonderful gift that should be accepted with joy and appreciation.
2016 was a tough year for me in many ways. My health was not good. Ehlers Danlos Syndrome took me on a trip that was not a vacation. I lived with pain and sickness because of this disorder. Because of the high doses of Topamax, I really didn’t function. Spending most of the year on the couch, exercise didn’t happen. Having serious symptoms of POTS also kept me from exercising and working on my physical therapy goals.
Dealing with these health conditions kept me in a cycle of pain and misery. At the very end of this year, I was finally free from the side-effects of Topamax. Functioning now became possible again. Being drugged by Topamax really caused me tremendous problems. Living without it has been remarkable!
Though I don’t enjoy looking backward, it is an important way to spend my time. I don’t want to make the same health mistakes. Being reactive isn’t helpful when you’re chronically ill. I’ll take that into consideration when I begin my New Year’s Resolutions.
Do you think over the past year, dwelling on the bad? Maybe it can help, because we don’t want to repeat bad decisions. The next thoughts were of the good things about 2016. The same problems of my health should also be thought of as blessings. Not that I want pain, but pain can teach many good lessons. Being content with the life you are given may be hard, but it’s the best way. Realizing that chronic illness doesn’t ruin your chances of happiness, is where I need to stay. Choosing to be happy is a decision, whether or not the circumstances match that decision.
So thanking God for 2016 should be easy. The gifts I was given were: life, love, and peace. There are many gifts we would love to have, but I can’t think of any better. God has given me life, love and peace. Hubby and family also offer love, which is shown in many ways. 2016 doesn’t seem so bad anymore.
Hebrews 13: 5 Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”