This morning I went to an appointment that I dreaded but also wanted to be done with. Because my CT scan had shown a mass on my right breast, the next step was a mammogram and sonogram.
I had a month between the CT scan and today, which gave me plenty of time to worry. In my mind, cancer was the probable result. It’s something that I always felt would be in my future. In a sick kind of way, I had accepted that.
But, today was not my day to get a cancer diagnosis. Today was a happier day! I’m so thankful to God that my mass was a stable fibroadenoma. In 2011, this same spot on my right breast showed one and it hasn’t grown or changed. What great news!
With all the other chronic illnesses and terrible diagnosis’s over the past few years, it’s such a blessing to get good news. Whatever is in the future, I don’t know, but today is a day to celebrate.
My celebration today is a quiet one. My feelings are calm and I feel humbled that there isn’t another disease to fight. Reflecting on the doctor’s words I realize that I really had been prepared to give this battle to God. It’s not one that I could ever fight alone; He would have to fight it for me.
If this is my true belief, then it makes me feel even more determined to let God fight all my battles for me. My battles include: severe fatigue, constant pain, allergic reactions, painful dry eyes, and the fears of progressive heart disease and medical bills. I just can’t fight all of this.
I hope and pray that you will find peace in your fight, too. He has the answers and everything that I need.
10 For every beast of the forest is mine,
the cattle on a thousand hills.
11 I know all the birds of the hills,
and all that moves in the field is mine.
14 Offer to God a sacrifice of thanksgiving,
and perform your vows to the Most High,
15 and call upon me in the day of trouble;
I will deliver you, and you shall glorify me.”
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