Chronic Illness

A Positive Perspective Of Chronic Illness

Waiting, Parting, Persevering, Affirming, and Loving are our 5 prompts for the month of October. Joining again with A Chronic Voice is always a thought-provoking exercise that I look forward to. As I study each word it pushes me to express my life with chronic illness in a new way.

Positive Perspective

Perspective is so important when you live with a chronic illness. I have many chronic illnesses, so I have learned the great need I have for a healthy perspective in my life. Having multiple chronic illnesses means that I’m faced with a lifetime of sickness and pain. Chronic means that it’s always there and not curable. Having a healthy outlook is the only way to survive the mental part of a chronically ill life.

I get my healthy perspective because of my relationship with Christ. Believing that He has the best for me and a good purpose for my life is what allows me to be at peace. I can even experience daily joy in my circumstances. But, I’m honest enough to say that there are some days that I don’t feel happy. Some days the pain is too intense for me to do anything but survive, and that’s ok.

Waiting

I’m not waiting for a cure. I’m sometimes willing to say that I’m waiting for a better treatment, but I’m certainly not holding my breath. The pharmaceutical industry seems to only care about their profits. They don’t work on chronic conditions, but are actively helping the governmental agencies to take away our options to appropriate levels of pain medication.

Parting

It is such sweet sorrow…as Shakespeare would say. When I’ve parted with one of my adult children to move to another state, I only felt sorrow. It didn’t seem to be sweet at all. As I parted from my home, I also parted from all my doctors. Now, having moved two months ago, I still haven’t found new doctors here. I’ve dreaded it so much, that I’ve just procrastinated. I dread meeting a new doctor who might be less than helpful.

Persevering

My husband often talks about how well I persevere with all that I go through each day. He says that he could never do so well. I don’t know about his reaction, but when you are the patient, there is no other choice but to persevere. Well, it’s the only choice if you are alive.

I find that I’m continuing to persevere in my attempts to be a blogger. I started blogging in 2013 and fell in love with it. I love writing, and have since high school. It benefits me tremendously and I hope to share encouragement and knowledge with my sweet readers. Although my blogs haven’t been successful in a monetary way, I will persevere because I have goals. (You can find my other blog HERE).

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Affirming

Affirmations are very popular now. Most of the affirmations I see today are self-motivating statements. These tend to be very bold statements saying to the world that “I can do it” . These very humanistic statements leave no need for the Almighty. These are meant to be statements of fact to bolster the confidence of the reader. As a Christian, I know that the verses in the Bible teach that we’re dependent on God. I know that in these 57 years I’ve lived that I can do all things with Christ, who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:13)

Loving

Loving my family is so easy. Loving myself is a daily struggle. Sometimes it’s easier to love my neighbor than myself. Although I never envisioned myself to end up this way, I am. I still struggle with self-acceptance, but look to God for the faith to go on from a very different place.

@2019 copyright Lisa Ehrman

Disclaimer: I’m not a medical expert. This post contains my opinions. If you have a medical concern, please consult your personal physician.

10 Comments

  • Sheryl

    Thanks for sharing such raw thoughts and emotions with us as always, Lisa. Some beautiful sentiments here, and life really is a mix of ups and downs, highs and lows. Perspective is so difficult sometimes when you’re trapped in a spot.

  • Anne

    Thank your for sharing, life certainly has it’s good and bad times. I hope you get sorted out with Doctors and treatment soon. I too have given up hope of a cure, but I will never give up hope of a better treatment.

  • Rhiann

    Another beautiful, honest and raw post from you Lisa. I think anyone will resonate with your perspective of life being a series of ups and downs and highs and lows. Thank you for sharing your perspective and I hope that October is kind to you.

  • Niamh

    Hi Lisa, its so difficult to go forth and find a new doctor. I’m struggling with this one myself lately. I hope when the time comes the right one appears for you and your needs x

    • Lisa

      It’s the worst feeling; knowing that our doctors can “make or break” us, so to speak. I hope that you also are blessed to find the right doctor you need 🙂

  • Carrie Kellenberger

    Hi Lisa,

    This is my first time visiting your site and I’m here through A Chronic Voice. Thank you for sharing. Much of what you said here really resonated with me. You mentioned being apart from your children and how hard it is. I moved from Canada to Asia in 2003 and fell sick here. I can’t go back now because I don’t have health care in Canada and can’t wait the required time it takes to reinstate me health care and also wait to find a new general practitioner who will refer me to specialists. It would take too long and I’m too sick now to take that chance, so here I stay. My mom just said to me this summer when I was home for a short visit that she finds it really hard to have me on the other side of the world and that she doesn’t know any other parents whose children have moved so far away. I felt terrible. I don’t know how to offer her comfort except to keep calling and to stay in touch as much as possible.

    I hear you on why you’re waiting to find new doctors. Doctor burnout is awful and having suffered through it for two years from 2016 to 2018, I really wasn’t sure how much I could keep going. Thankfully I was able to reduce my appointments with a new med, but it was also traumatic to have to find a new rheumy and go over all of it for what feels like the millionth time. (I got my diagnosis in 2009, so it seems like I’ve tried everything now.) Anyways, I really liked your entry and wanted to share about. I’m 44 and I’m not a mom, so it was interesting to me to read what you wrote for this month. I look forward to dropping by again soon.

  • Lisa

    You’ve really had some awful circumstances to be in. Being chronically ill causes so many life-stresses that healthy people never have to think about. And for us, these things rule our life. I’m glad to hear that your new med has helped you some.
    Moms just want to be kept in the loop, and you’re sweet to keep your mom informed. It’s hard for us when we don’t feel as needed as we were when our children were at home 🙂
    Thanks for stopping by and sharing your story!

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