Overwhelmed With Hope

Last night I took my first dose of LDN (Low Dose Naltrexone). My emotions were high as I swallowed the small capsule. I was nervous and hopeful that this pill would be something that would actually help. My new doctor told me that I wouldn’t notice anything before the fourth day. I was so afraid that my body would react to something new, but it didn’t.

Trying new drugs causes me anxiety because of all the different drugs I’ve tried and so many of them have had awful side-effects. Between dreading the side-effects and the let-down that happens when the drug doesn’t work, my experiences taking medications hasn’t been positive. My list of medications has grown so long! And, I still feel terrible.

For those reasons, I’m giving this new clinic a chance. I feel like I have nothing to lose. Nothing that I’ve taken to improve my health has actually improved it. There has been improvement in a very few symptoms, but the worst symptoms are not improved. The Gabapentin medication has definitely stopped most of my small fiber neuropathy pain. So, I’m grateful for that help and any other help that I’ve gotten.

Having so much hope for each and every new thing or new doctor is exhausting, but I still go on. I’m literally a nervous wreck about this new holistic doctor. Trying LDN is just his first attempt to help my pain. I feel my muscles are all in knots and I’m constantly reminding myself to lower my shoulders and breathe deeply.

Many people have heard of Naltrexone. At high doses, Naltrexone is used to help patients with Opioid or Alcohol addiction. Those doses usually start at 50mg. Low Dose Naltrexone (starting at 4 mg) is used in off-label treatments for MS, ALS, cancers, and autoimmune diseases. This can help as an anti inflammatory and improve pain and fatigue. Oh, how I hope to get help in these two areas.

LDN isn’t available in regular pharmacies, but must be bought from a compounding pharmacy. My doctor prescribed it right away and will test me out at 4mg. He said some people need a slightly higher dose. I’m so hopeful that I can hardly stand it!

@2020, copyright Lisa Ehrman

Disclaimer: I’m not a medical expert. This post contains my only opinions and is not intended to be taken as medical advice. If you have a medical concern, please consult your personal physician.

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