Brain Fog Makes Me Do The Dumbest Things

The last few days I’ve needed my cane, because my left knee keeps going out. The knee slips slightly out of joint and I feel that I will fall. It really hurts when it does that and I know this is caused by Ehlers Danlos Syndrome. When this happens, it always slips many times each day for a number of days. Then, it quits. I don’t know exactly why this happens, but I’ve lived through it many times.

When I first had to use my cane, I was very self-concious. But, I’m no longer embarrassed. Maybe that’s because most of the time I’m out of the house, I’m at a doctor’s appointment or hospital. No one notices a woman with graying hair who happens to use a cane. I feel much more at ease than I once did. And anyway, my cane is cute with all the pink flowers covering it.

I’ve had more pain than usual, even though the high dose of Gabapentin has been helping my pinched nerve pain. Pain is so complex! I really hate it, but it’s just part of living and especially living with EDS, Sjogren’s and MCAS. Hubby asked me what I thought was causing this pain and I told him that I had no idea which illness was responsible.

It’s been exasperating the last few days as I’m trying to prepare for our trip to see the little grandkids. We’ve come to the conclusion that there is no way to get a driver’s license in this state. I missed my expiration date on being able to just swap my old license for a Kansas license. The new federal laws being enforced mean that if you are a married woman who took her husband’s name, you must have an official marriage certificate to get a new license.

To get one of those from Virginia, there are only certain ID’s that they will accept to get an official marriage certificate. I don’t qualify, because my license is expired and I don’t have any of the other acceptable documents. It’s pretty maddening. We are desparate now, because I don’t know how I’ll make it visiting my kids without a driver’s license.

It’s my fault for letting my license expire. My brain fog had me convinced that I had two more weeks, but I was looking at the 13 and thinking it said 31. There are so many ridiculous governmental regulations that are new, and now I wonder if I’ll ever be able to get a license? People with welfare or convicts have more options to get licenses than I do. Ugh!

LIfe is so stressful and with all of this my IBS has gotten worse. All I need is a flare when I’m trying to get ready to see my newest grandchild. I’m praying that God can help this to work out somehow. Hopefully, He can help us find a way to make this trip happen.

I Peter 5:7 Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.

@2021, copyright Lisa Ehrman

Disclaimer: I’m not a medical expert. This post contains my opinions and experiences and is not meant to be taken as medical advice. If you have a medical concern, please consult your personal physician.

4 thoughts on “Brain Fog Makes Me Do The Dumbest Things”

  1. Praying that you do find a way to make the trip. My mother had to jump through so many hoops when she moved back to our state in order to get her new license it was crazy! It took her months upon months to get it all straightened out and I completely agree that these regulations are just insane. Even getting one for my 17 year old was problematic as he has no mail with his address on it! (handwritten letters/ cards from family don’t count)

    1. Thank you. It’s so sad that there are all these crazy rules. It’s terrible that a 17 year old needs that type of documentation to get a license…no common sense! I already had enough stress just riding in the car with my young drivers…lol.

  2. Blessings to you. Brain fog definitely impacts my ability to make wise choices at times. I hear you on the license difficulties. It used to be so much easier. When I went to renew my license and get it as a “Real ID” as well- I had to bring so much proof and paperwork. I had 4 workers looking over my birth certificate with a fine tooth comb. I said: “My birth certificate is from a small rural town from the 1950s. It doesn’t look like modern ones.” Yikes!!! LOL Trust in The Most High God and He will never let you down.

    1. Yikes, for sure! That’s totally crazy and they know too much about us. With my brain and all the stress, trusting God is the only way. He is always good 🙂

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