Chronic Illness

Never Stop Fighting the Pain

Waking up to another day of misery….my body is hurting.  Because of kidney damage, I’ve had to cut back on my pain medicines.  The tizinadine loss definitely made me hurt more, but the lowering of my Cymbalta is ridiculous!


Another day of waking up with a severe headache, joint pain and muscle pain is awful.  Not being able to even get a shower for two days makes me feel so horrible.  These are the days when I feel worthless.  I can’t even think of cooking, much less getting dressed and looking decent.  Where are the days when I had a life?  Oh, they were years ago.

Hubby is quick to say that I’m not worthless, but the center of the family.  He’s so sweet.  I’m not looking for pity, but it’s hard to cope with constant pain.  I may go days or weeks without these low feelings, but when things get severe for long periods of time, I feel like giving up.


Now, I must remind myself to never quit.  I must fight these feelings, because they are just feelings brought on by pain.  I pray and ask for strength and know that God gives me what is needed.  My goal is to fight this huge pile of disorders, diseases that cause me so much misery.

The pain management doctor mentioned a list of ways to fight pain without my medicines: physical therapy, injections, acupuncture and chiropractic.  Of course, I have my tens unit and rub-on gels.  I’ve never really wanted to try acupuncture, but now I’m going to call about it tomorrow.  As I’ve looked into this treatment (online) it seems to be something worth trying.

Pain pray

If I don’t get some type of relief, I’ll never be able to do the exercise that I’m needing to do.  Even physical therapy takes physical effort.  I have no ability to do PT when I’m in this much pain.  Maybe the little needles will help?  If I’m going to fight this, I have to try something.

With a little bit of fear and a lot of prayer, I’ll add another treatment as soon as possible.  Hope is a great thing.

2 Corinthians 4:16-18  So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.

@2017, copyright Lisa Ehrman


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  1. I feel your pain. I know what it feels like to have every muscle and joint screaming out in defiance. Lately, I’ve been exercising through the pain. At first, it was difficult. My mind was not wanting anything to do with it. It kept focusing on the pain, but little by little God has given me the grace to move this body.
    I sure hope acupuncture works for you. Chiropractic may work too.
    hugs and blessings + you’re not alone.

    1. xaoti

      Thanks, Sara! I’m so glad that you’re moving again and exercising. It sure is an unbelievable struggle, isn’t it? Just started acupuncture today and have hope that it’s going to be helpful. Gentle hugs back to you 🙂

  2. Dear Lisa,

    Stopping by to pray for you and to offer you hope during this challenging season!
    I sure hope your new treatment helps.
    It’s been a difficult season for me too… I find myself needing to rest more and do less!

    1. xaoti

      Thank you so much for the prayers and encouragement! It’s so hard when we can’t get up and do what we want. I’m sorry that you’re doing worse. I’m hopeful for the acupuncture, because after my first visit I’ve noticed clearer vision and that’s exciting! God bless 🙂

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