I know it’s officially fall, but I hardly know what day or season it is. When you’re like me, and you only go out of the house for doctor’s appointments, you lose track of the days, weeks, seasons….
I’ve been stuck in my house since my hysterectomy surgery in 2015. After the surgery recovery was complete, my body had become a sad thing. My Ehlers Danlos pain and subluxations were creating a situation in which I didn’t function. My days are filled with fatigue, pain, and dizziness. The POTs-like symptoms have left me a true couch-potato.
I’ve started programs to help myself many times, but nothing has been the magic-bullet needed to get me off the couch. Thankfully, I still have hope for something new that will be the key to better health. I may look defeated, but inside is the Energizer Bunny, ready to emerge.
I often rejoice when I can get a shower and cook dinner in the same day. Any day that I can accomplish something that we all consider normal, is a day of thankfulness. It’s so much fun to do something that makes me feel normal.
The sad reality is that as one season changes to another, I will hardly notice. When you’re a prisoner of your home/body you lose focus on what is real. The reality of day turning to night and summer changing to fall just doesn’t happen for me. The special days, every few months, when I actually go out for church or something fun, are so rare that they’re celebrated like a holiday!
I long to take a walk or take a drive again. This is why the fight for my body will never stop! I won’t ever stop trying to get better. That’s why I’m taking another stab at Physical Therapy. My second visit will happen next week. And, though I know it will exhaust me, I’m determined to go. My third acupuncture visit is next week, too. The second trip brought me so much exhaustion and pain the day after. But, the therapist warned me of this.
Giving up is not an option. Life is too good!
Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the LORD your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you. Deut. 31:6
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