This is my first month to join A Chronic Voice in sharing my thoughts on specific prompts. This should be fun! I’ll be sharing about these ideas:
After a month of traveling for the holidays and to doctors appointments, my body needs to recover. The hardest part of this recovery process is the forced wean off of some of my medicines. When I headed to the appointment for Autonomic Testing, the doctor said these tests won’t be properly done as long as I’m taking certain medications. Weaning off of my only “pain” medicines was the cause of many awful side-effects and I actually failed one of the weans. My body is recovering and most of the weaning side-effects have gone away.
Yes, the shopping season is in full swing. I’m thankful for online shopping, because almost all of my purchases are made on the web. My packages have been arriving every day and I try to wrap them as they come in. It’s much less painful to wrap one or two presents each day, than to try and have a big wrapping party.
What I enjoy has certainly gone through a chronic-illness evolution. Many things that bored me in the past are now a favorite past-time. One example of this is the type of television that I now watch. In the past, Hallmark movies and Lifetime movies caused many an eye-roll. But now, these light-hearted Christmas flicks are a peaceful part of my day. These types of movies are cheerful and filled with Christmas music. I’m also enjoying the lights of my Christmas tree and candles flickering. With my dog cuddled beside me, I can enjoy the Christmas season.
Reminiscing can make me sad. Every Christmas, since my poor health took over, I remember all the wonderful experiences playing Christmas music on my flute or piano. As a musician, losing the ability to perform is frustrating and depressing. When you spent your young life working toward a career, it’s very hard to give it up. But, chronic illness has taken away my ability to play, because of pain and finger instability. I’ve had to let these feelings go, but that doesn’t stop the memories. I’m thankful that I had those years and all the joy that came from performing.
While I am preparing for Christmas, I’m also preparing for more medical tests. My insurance was canceled and is being replaced by a sub-par policy. This new insurance will not cover my specialists who are testing me for various diseases. It will also not cover pain-management and other health issues. So, December has become a marathon of testing, as I try to get all the tests done before my insurance will not cover them. Testing far from home is hard because the travel is painful and expensive. Having to get hotel accommodations, meals, and dog-boarding costs too much. We also want to visit family during the holidays. There are many things to anticipate; good and bad. I’ll do my best to focus on the good!
I’m glad to join The Chronic Voice in this Chronic Illness Link Party for December.
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