The May Link-up for People With Chronic Illness
Hostess: A Chronic Voice
I was born on Mother’s Day. May is a month that I look forward to, but it seems to come around sooner each year. Birthdays were always a big deal in my family and remembering these special days is becoming more frequent as I age. Remembering the good days is common with older-aged folks. Turning 56 this month makes me feel older. I don’t think I would feel older if I didn’t feel so bad. Chronic illness naturally causes me to remember the good days of my life when I was healthy. Remembering is important, but I don’t want to dwell on the good days of the past in a self-pitying way. I want to remember them just because they were good. Life now can also be good, even if I’m hurting and am no longer healthy.
Caring is a word that I love more than I did in my past. Caring is how I describe my family. They care for me in word and deed. By providing me with daily verbal encouragement, my family shows me that they care. Caring extends to the way they act toward me. My care-taker is my husband. He’s had to take over many of the chores in our home. These take up most of his time and he handles it really well. Having chronic illness has changed me. I’m more caring to those who suffer and to the injustices that they face.
Entertaining is something that I have a difficult time talking about. It’s been quite a few years since I felt like entertaining others in my home. I think that it’s important to entertain others as a way to serve and encourage them. When I had people over for a nice meal or party in the past, I made sure that the house was clean, neat, and welcoming. That’s not something I can accomplish now without my family doing most of the physical work. If I entertain at all, I have to lower my standards and just try to enjoy the experience. Maybe that’s a good change, but I still have a hard time accepting my limitations.
Design skills were never in my portfolio. Having siblings with great design skills made my lack of talent even more obvious. I never minded it too much, but wished that I knew how to best decorate my home. I guess that’s why my home style could be called eclectic. My taste in design has always been traditional with a nice beige theme. I say this with a sense of humor because I’ve been called boring before. As my health has grown more poor, I’ve had the desire to change my design style. My goal is to change the boring beige to beautiful colors and more of a feminine design.
The word belief to me predominantly refers to spiritual belief. My belief in God shapes all my thinking. Although I would love to be healthy, I believe that God has my best interests in mind. When I get discouraged or angry at my condition, I can turn to God, who gives me peace. Because I’m a Christian, dealing with a life of pain and sickness is possible. By believing in His good purpose, I try to use my life to benefit others. This is why I wanted to blog, sharing my journey with others. I’m believing that good can come from it.
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