Joining the A Chronic Voice monthly prompt link-ups is a fun way to analyze your monthly goals. The prompt words below enable me to dig deep into thoughts I might not have explored. So, here goes!
A life with chronic illness causes a person to think about life in a totally new way. Change is stressful, so I need to remind myself that I’m still the same person. I may not feel the same or even look the same, but down deep I’m the same. Reminding myself that my character traits, my beliefs, and values are mine and will help me to persevere through a new and tougher life.
Pacing is one of the things I fail at the most. Pacing my activities is the only way I have any control of flares. Of course, I don’t have complete control, but the worst thing to do is to over-do it. Since I had many years of energy before my body attacked me, I know what it’s like to be active and energetic. I remember how it feels to accomplish things and complete everything on my to-do list. Now, I need to pace myself every single day!
I may have not completely surrendered myself to these illnesses. I still like to think that it’s all just a bad dream. But, surrendering to it is important. It’s from surrender that I can formulate a plan to improve.
Surrendering my life and will to God is an act that took place for me as a child. Since then, I’ve been following Christ. Being surrendered to His plan makes it possible to accept this life of pain. I’m now able to trust Him.
We all want to improve our lives. My biggest thing I want to improve is my fitness and weight. Being so sedentary the last three years has brought on unwanted pounds, soft muscles, and more pain. The extra weight has upped my bad cholesterol, blood pressure, and made me look bad. I don’t even recognize the person in the mirror.
But, exercising has been a failure. To improve, I must never give up. I’ll keep trying new things and new medications to enable me to exercise. I’m improving my diet and hope that this will help.
When I see this word I think of “go with the flow” or flowing down a river. These thoughts sound pretty good unless you’re life is flowing through rapids filled with huge boulders. As you quickly flow through these waters, you hit rocks, get beat-up, get sun-burned, fall out, and could easily drown.
Wouldn’t it be more fun to flow down a lazy river in an inner tube, sipping lemonade? Oh, yes! But, since I can’t choose my river, I need to plan ahead. I need to wear the right equipment to make the ride easier and safer. That’s why I go to the doctor and take medications. That’s why I do physical therapy and exercise appropriately. We have to use whatever we can find to make the life we have smoother.
I hope you’ll think through these prompts and see how you relate to my feelings. Are they similar, or very different? It’s important to slow down and contemplate our lives.
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