The Chronic Voice has again opened up the Chronic Illness Bloggers Linky. I’m happy to be able to share my thoughts and read those of other bloggers who are living a chronic life. The five prompts this month are: Processing, Relying, Retreating, Cancelling, and Reframing.
January and February has been hard with tons of flares and Covid-19. The MCAS flares continued on and on so that I had to take a round of prednisone. Now that March has arrived, I’m through with that flare and have replaced it with bad headaches. They are starting in my neck and are hard to keep away. I take Advil when I have to, but I probably need a massage or two to calm down the neck muscle knots.
We’re all trying to process the horrible invasion of Ukraine. Our personal problems are dwarfed when considering the life and death situation of war. As we cry watching the senseless murders of civilians, we are helpless. It’s very hard to believe that this is happening in 2022. I grew up during the Cold War and didn’t dream that this type of attack would happen now.
I’ve also been trying to process problems in my family. My dad is in the last stages of heart failure and is touch and go. He’s 700 miles away, and though I saw him recently, I am not sure if I’ll be going to stay with him soon. Sometimes when things are going wrong, relatives can handle things poorly and cause deep hurts. So, I’m doing my best to remain calm and be an adult with good responses to attacks.
When I’m going through trials, my desire is to deal negatively with the problems. But, as I think for a minute, I know that I need to look at the cause and solution possibilities. I know that I can only rely on God. I’m so thankful that my husband is strong and a perfect partner for me. We totally understand each other and have each other’s backs. I rely on him for so many things that physically are hard for me. He usually does the dishes after I cook a meal. And, there are so many other ways I rely on him.
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope. Romans 15:13
I have been reminded again to retreat from one toxic person in my life. Every time I forget how toxic they are, I get attacked and then back off again. I feel the need for more self-care and am trying to retreat from my typical Type A intensity. I love accomplishing things, but this drive to accomplish stuff can get me on a treadmill that leads nowhere. So, I’m trying to retreat from that pattern.
I’ve been cancelling many appointments in the first of this year. I was so sick from Bronchitis and Covid-19, that I missed some medical appointments. I had to cancel two months of phototherapy and haven’t gotten back to it yet. I plan to travel in a couple of weeks, so I will try to schedule the April phototherapy appointments. Cancelling events and trips is very common in my chronic life. I can never know when I’m going to be too sick to leave the house. Chronic illness just means that I never know what to expect from one day to the next.
Because I’ve been in such bad shape in January and February, I didn’t have the mental energy to reframe things. When I get through a rough time, I usually reframe things. It really helps me to rearrange a lot of the furniture to change the atmosphere. When I do that, I feel like I’ve reframed my environment. It gives me a fresh feeling. Right now, I’ve got many plans in my head.
I’m planning to rearrange my small dining area and spruce up my desk area. Decluttering helps me to be able to reframe my thoughts. It can take away the negative feelings when I make a new plan and begin to carry it out.
@2022, copyright Lisa Ehrman
Disclaimer: I’m not a medical expert. This post contains my experiences and opinions and is not meant to be taken as medical advice. If you have a medical concern, please consult your personal physician.