Yesterday I had to drive my husband to an eye exam. After he broke his glasses in a bad fall, he needed new pair. I felt terrible, but was able to drive him there. It was a Walmart optical office, so I walked in the store to look for an Easter gift for my grandchild. I was only in there for 5 minutes when the pain became severe.
I hobbled back to the office where I could sit down. My lower back pain was killing me and I regretted my short adventure in shopping. What started as a routine eye exam soon became more serious. The doctor spotted a retinal tear in one eye. This was on the same side where he hit the ground and received a concussion.
Since trauma can cause a retinal tear, we are guessing this is when it occurred. His vision hasn’t been affected, but it’s still scary. He’ll have to be driven to the city so that the doctor can use a laser to repair his tear. He’s nervous, obviously. I’m also very nervous, because I can’t afford to have an allergic reaction that morning. He’s counting on me to drive.
With the daily allergic reactions, all I know to do is to get back on my full dose of prednisone and try to prevent that from happening. If I wake up needing Benadryl, I’ll be too drowsy to safely drive in big city traffic. Life with chronic illness really stinks!
I wish that I could be dependable, but I’m not. I’ll just do everything possible to prevent letting him down. If all else fails, he’ll have a very expensive taxi charge. I hope that it won’t happen, because he needs my emotional support.
It would be easier if we lived closer to family members that could step in and help us. My daughter has tried to get us to move closer to her, so that she could help us when we need it. I guess with my poor health and my husband’s new and numerous health problems, this would be a good idea. We’re just praying that we make the right decisions.
Making decisions when you’re all messed up with brain fog and pain, can be tricky. Not only do we have to weigh the pros and cons of today, we don’t know what tomorrow will bring. When I was young and healthier (functioning, at least), I didn’t think that life would get to this point before I even reached the age of 60.
So, we’ll just take our time making decisions, getting lots of advice from others, and praying. For today, we’ll just do the best we can.
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