I’ve been so aware that my ordeal with the allergic reaction is over. Oh, I can’t begin to express my thankfulness to God that the terrifying and miserable days are over. When you have times like this, it really makes you wonder if you can make it through.
I wish that I hadn’t felt that bad. I wish I hadn’t had those thoughts, but it happened. I contribute most of it to the medicines. The medicine that I took could have side-effects that could include mood changes or suicidal thoughts. I also was going through the worst allergic reaction ever!
I’m not in the medical field, but have read the side-effects from my other medications listing the same warnings. Now that I’m mixing all these medicines together, does anyone know what that could do to me? It seems that it probably means something akin to the old cartoons of the mad scientist.
As he dumps one thing after another into his container, it eventually blows up. That is how I feel taking all these drugs. My system said, ‘no’ and the reaction went on and on. I wish I had figured it out before it got so serious.
My body had never reacted in this way, so it didn’t click right. My brain fog is so bad I don’t think things through quickly. I wish I wasn’t still talking about this, but it was real trauma and it’s hard to get over. It’s harder for me to rise above trauma when I put myself on guilt trips and refuse to put myself first….even when I’m very, very sick.
God wants me to treat myself better. I hope that he’s trying to teach me a lesson that will really make changes happen. Is this also one lesson that you need to learn? I don’t want to be self-centered, but we do need to treat ourselves as worthy in the eyes of God.
When we have things so out of order, we’re going to be stressed. Even if we can hide it from others, stress is a huge trigger for most diseases. That’s one thing I don’t need more of, and I bet you feel the same way.
@2023, copyright Lisa Ehrman
Disclaimer: I’m not a medical expert. This post contains my opinions and experiences and is not meant to be taken as medical advice. If you have a medical concern, please consult your personal physician.