I’ve known for many years about how seasons can affect our moods, such as SAD in the winter months. I have never felt like this was something that I dealt with. Sometimes we think about cloudy, dark days leading to feelings of depressions. But for me, I love cloudy days.
I do wonder about mood changes, though. My moods can change so often and so quickly. I’m not talking about manic depressive disorder. But, I can feel mood changes that aren’t so drastic. I’m such a melancholy person, I really doubt that I’ve ever experienced mania.
The last three weeks I’ve been away from home and left alone for much of the time. Without a television to distract myself with, I’ve been left to deal with my emotions. Because there has been a lot of extended-family drama here, I’ve felt lots of stress.
Because of all the stress, I have gotten more emotional and tired. Tiredness can be depression, but I’ve also had a real problem eating a healthy diet here. That is also contributing to my tiredness. The vitamins can only do so much, when I’m not getting all the nutrients that I need in my meals.
I know that many of the illnesses that I have can make a person feel anxious, depressed, and moody. Having Ehlers Danlos Syndrome affects the brain. Fibro and Sjogren’s also can do the same. I feel like I’m being bombarded with anxiety. At least I realize what’s happening and I’m trying to deal with it.
I really need to go to the store, but I have no energy to do that. I’m dependent on Hubby to make extra trips for me, and sure do miss him. This post may be TMI or just venting, and it doesn’t always make me feel better afterwards.
Do you have trouble with moodiness? Does the tiredness and pain from your chronic illnesses wear on your emotions? I will pray for all of us today. Just because my moods are up and down, I know that God is always the same! Take a breather and ask for help if you need it. We really have to take care of ourselves. It’s important!
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Disclaimer: I’m not a medical expert. My posts contain my opinions and are not intended to be taken as medical advice. If you have a medical concern, please consult your personal physician.
I’m sorry you’ve been having such a stressful time, especially these last few weeks. It sounds like, being away from home and a bit more on your own away from ‘usual life’, that you’re facing the emotions without the distractions we often have. It also sounds like you’re utterly shattered, and what a vicious cycle that is!
I do struggle with mood too, and swings. I have fibro, chronic pain, ME/CFS, etc, and exhaustion is a big thing for me. Melancholy describes me quite well too. I can swing a little towards the mania side thanks to high anxiety, which is really running rampant lately. But then after that, after all the busy-ness, I’m even more exhausted. It’s a mish-mash and a cycle that’s hard to break and even harder to level out from.
What do you think you need right now? I think a good dose of self-care to focus on yourself, on getting some calm and eating well, de-stressing, catching up on rest, and all that good stuff is probably a good idea too. I’m always around if ever you want to talk, Lisa. Sending gentle hugs. ♥
You’re so kind to try and help me through these tough times I’ve been going through. I am thankful to be back home and I was definitely ready. I’m getting back on my diet and supplements. I’m going to start some self-care tomorrow. Rest and other forms of self-care really do help, and it’s a shame we don’t always use them when we need to. Your conditions are very painful, so I know you understand this need. With the holidays coming soon, we’ll both need to focus on taking care of ourselves, for sure. Thanks 🙂