Almost Surreal

Some days almost feel surreal. Today was a gorgeous day, with temperatures around 60. The sun was shining and a lovely breeze kept things cool. The only thing that ruined things was that I was at the hospital.

I was glad to be able to get an x-ray today, but it wasn't easy. Getting in and out of the car was extremely difficult. I couldn't put my left foot down and now I couldn't put my (good foot) right foot down and pivot to push myself into the car.

We made the drive to the hospital. The x-rays were walk-in and they had received my doctor's order. Just after I had transferred into the wheelchair, a hospital volunteer came out to help and said that the x-ray machine was down.

I had to get back in the car, but it was much harder. Having to pull myself up and standing on my right foot, I needed to pivot in order to jump onto the car's seat. It was very painful and I couldn't pivot at all. I had to just hold on to the car and jump in with a twisted foot motion.

We drove to the other hospital branch and unloaded into the wheelchair again. I literally dropped into the wheelchair and Hubby remarked, "well, we can always get another wheelchair." We both laughed.

There was no line to get an x-ray so we walked right in. I couldn't get out of the wheelchair, and the tech was great. He brought everything to me and got the x-rays done quickly.

After a couple of hours the results were on my online chart. I dreaded reading them. After getting through some big words (that I had to look up) I read that I probably have a stress fracture. I also have a heel spur, but I already knew that.

I sent the results to my ankle surgeon to ask him if he wanted to treat this or to just let an orthopedic doctor here deal with it. I felt even more surreal when I thought about both ankles and both wrists being out of commission.

The pain in my wrists varies from dull pain to throbbing. My ankles don't hurt very often when they're propped up on three pillows. I really hope that I can get a shower sometime soon. The 'sponge baths' don't feel as good as a shower.

But, I'm thankful that hair washing shower caps exist. At least they clean the hair a little and they smell fresh. One thing I love about my hair is washing it. Some day there again will be showers on my calendar. That will be awesome.

The end of this day leaves me with my thoughts. I definitely feel sadness and worry about will happen next. It seems that whatever is causing fractured bones and avascular necrosis is wreaking havoc on my life. I am praying that God will help me.

I'm praying that healing will be possible in all my joints. I'm praying that knowledgeable and wise doctors can offer a treatment that could help to prevent more joints from developing avascular necrosis. Pain is awful, but nothing compares with not being able to use your hands and feet.

I have so much to think about, but I trust that God will take these challenges and

give me stronger faith.

Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong. II Cor. 12:10

@2025, copyright Lisa Ehrman

Disclaimer: I'm not a medical expert. This post contains my opinions and experiences and is not meant to be taken as medical advice. If you have a medical concern,, please consult your personal physician.