This Saturday has become a day or re-sets. So often in my chronic illness journey I long to make some changes. When things get bogged down, my inner drive for order comes alive. There has been no order to my life lately. Being in a flare is tough. These are the times when I let everything go and just try to survive the extra pain, fatigue, and pathetic brain fog.
Yes, I think brain fog makes me pathetic. I can’t think straight or talk right. I kind of babble with my mouth and my brain, too. As I vegetate in my recliner, I plan what I’ll do when the flare subsides. Today I’m planning to get the house in order. One thing I like to do is rearrange the furniture.
Moving the furniture is something I’ve always done when I need to make changes in my life. It helps me to feel like I’m turning a new leaf. Everything feels fresh and cleaner. I’m forced to de-clutter the piles of paper and junk when the furniture gets moved. And, the floor gets a good cleaning, too.
After making some fresh piles to go through, I’m icing my back and have a heating pad on my calves. The barometric pressure is causing throbbing in my muscles and head. But, I’m thankful that I can take breaks and still accomplish a little bit today.
I would much rather be at my nephews wedding this weekend, but it’s so far away that we couldn’t make the trip. After this next week, if my husband’s bloodwork shows positive changes we might be able to schedule a trip. We want to see our newest grandchild and if hubby has a break from treatment and feels able, we’ll try to travel.
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
Missing important events is just something that happens with chronic illness. Even though I would have tried to travel, cancer has put a hold on that. We’ll go when we can. It will make the trip even sweeter when we do finally do it.
What have you been missing because of your chronic illness? I hope that your illness will be stable so that you can get out. Now that the mask mandate is allowing more of us to be out and about, I’m even more happy that I was vaccinated. I hope and pray for us to all be safe from additional sickness.
@2021, copyright Lisa Ehrman
Disclaimer: I’m not a medical expert. This post contains my experiences and opinions and is not meant to be taken as medical advice. If you have a medical concern, please consult your personal physician.